Have you ever found yourself in an emotional tornado? Where
everything is happening all at once and your world is spinning out of control? Where
the only option you have is to stand and watch your entire life circle around
you? Banging off the ground – flying in the air. Everything that has ever meant
anything to you is free game to the storm. That sounds like the hard part. Oh
darling, I wish I could tell you it was. The storm itself is terrifying and
damaging. But going through the ruble of what used to be is far, far worse. I would rather stand in the middle of a room
and see what I have swarming around me, than to look at the ruins that are
leftover. Memories soaked with tears are all that are left. Walk through the
ruins of your mind to see that nothing is as it used to be. The tornado was a
defining moment in time that everything will be measured by from now on. At some
point you have to start picking up the broken pieces of what remains and start
to build again. You’ll feel guilty for leaving what wasn’t salvageable – but some
things aren’t meant to go into this new season. You might be entering this
season alone, and that is okay. It’s going to hurt. You’re going to cry. You’ll
feel angry and disappointed and nauseas. But you’ll keep building. Sifting
through one item at a time, you will rebuild yourself. And before you know it,
you’ll be functional again. You’ll look different. In some cases there may only
be remnants of what used to be, and that is okay too. You are not what happened
to you, you are not the storm that left you devastated. You are what you create
after the storm. Mourn if you need to, but move on. Don’t stay staring at what
isn’t there anymore, you might miss something new right in front of you.
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